Oh, Adammmmmmmmmmm. *sniff*

As is my calling, I'm probably the last person on Earth to read this book. Whatever. Someday, I'll be caught up. Maybe. (Probably not). I bought If I Stay by Gayle Foreman in January. I read it last week. But you know, if you still haven't, there might be spoilers.

Why didn't anyone tell me this book was so damn good? Oh wait, everyone did. Fail.

First off, please ignore the note in the upper corner of the cover. While I read and enjoyed the Twilight series, these books really have SO very little in common. I'm not sure what 'will appeal to fans of Stephanie Meyer's Twilight' is even saying. Um, in both, there's a boy and a girl. The similarities, for me, ended there.

I loved this. Like big whole bunches, kiss it and squeeze it like a new puppy, write it's name on my book covers in pink puffy hearts LOVED IT. I wasn't sure how much depth could be in a 250 page book.

But Gayle Foreman PACKED THIS BABY. Gah, I was aching for Mia and the choice she has to make. I loved her voice, and I loved the flow of the memories she had into the present. My heart broke for her over and over and over.

When she realizes what's happened, when she figures out that Teddy is gone. It's just impossible to imagine facing that choice as a teenager, or ever really.

And Adam. Well, that is one swoon of a boy. There were so many parts where I was like 'Girl, wake up and kiss him!' But when I read the line 'Please, don't make me write a song for you.' I was DEAD. Killed by angsty love.

I will also say that the author did a stellar job of fleshing out the secondary characters, making them rich and real and vibrant. *sniff* GRAMPS!*sniff*

So, what does one do in this case? Read the sequel (which I bought months ago)? I don't know, I'm sort of holding off. I'm afraid it won't live up. And I'm afraid it will just be some 'slap a happy ending on this story because the end of the other one was too ambiguous.' I like ambiguous. I'm could go happily on knowing that Mia chose to come back and that's it.

Except that I want a little more swoon boy. So look for an upcoming review of Where She Went.

Also, I'll be reviewing Forbidden as soon as I can stop sobbing.